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The night , not the dark

Sometimes , world looks really unfair.
Last night, I spent my time with one of my best friend. I knew him since 14 years ago, at the kindergarten. He told me that he already did his best effort for "something" but finally failed . That's normal , I know failure is a part of someone's life , but for this case .... I know, I understand , it's absolutely painful and I do hope he can pass this phase though really hard to smile. I know he's strong enough and will always be, but as a friend, I really hope he can get a total and pure happiness for his future, not like this. It's sad when I listened that case and nothing I can do except give spirit and be there as a good listener for him. I believe , one day he'll get a better "thing" than what he wants right now.  I hope so, really hope . Maybe it's easier for me if he was a girl, I can just hug her and say that everything's fine , suggest her to be a stronger person . But unfortunatelly it's not that easy. Ya... whatever it is, I know everyone have their own way to control their self and their feeling, same with him . 

Be patient, there's a bright future waiting for you, keep your smile and please be happy with your life. Friend will always be there, beside you, help you , for sure :)

sweet like him

it's funny when I found this pic 

pretty same with what he said to me , hahaha :)

Selamat Ulang Tahun Jogja

Selamat Ulang Tahun Jogja 

Selamat 256 

dan selamat hujan

Iya...

hari ini Jogja hujan

Indah

Dingin, biru, membelenggu 

Namun tak membuatku membeku
 

Nyaman sekali rasanya mengamati seluruh sudut jalan yang ku lewati

samar-samar...menikmati kota ini melalui kaca yang dipenuhi buliran air 

Kian lama tersadar 

Aura kota ini lmemang luar biasa

Selalu ada daya tarik tersendiri

Kamu tau satu hal? 

Jogja memang berbeda 

Jogja selalu istimewa 

terutama bagiku dan dia

it's not waiting

you don't have to wait 

because I know, you don't even want to .....

isn't it?

Kemarin Hujan

Hujan telah kembali

Kembali membawa semua memori

Memori yang mungkin tidak seharusnya masih ada, tapi entah kenapa terus saja tersimpan di sana

Memori yang seenaknya datang dan pergi tanpa peduli 

Memori yang mampu membalik utara menjadi selatan, timur menjadi barat

Hujan telah reda, memori menghilang

Secepat itukah ? Semudah itukah? 

Sang memori kembali ke asalnya, dan sang pemilik memori sibuk menjalani rutinitas hidupnya

Akankah keduanya berkaitan kembali? mungkin...

Hanya saja, kapankah hujan datang kembali?

Kapankan hujan akan benar-benar datang kembali? 

Hujan yang sebenarnya, bukan hanya mendung dengan udara dingin yang membelenggu 

Kapan?

Hanya Tuhan yang mengerti

Lalu? 

Jawab saja dengan hatimu

Meluap

Kasih sayang, perhatian, perlindungan, dan segalanya.

 Entah seberapa besar lagi kapasitas yang ku miliki untuk terus menampung semua luapan itu 

Abstrak , pemisah kebahagiaan dan ketakutan . 

Ketakutan bila tak mampu membalas semua luapan itu 
dengan 
"sama besar"

A Journey to the Sun

a great day with someone who always treat me like a princess :)